Blessings Through it All

To be given the opprotunity to close one door just to see another one open is a blessing within itself. No matter how many curve balls life may continue to throw my way I am blessed to say that I have made it another day. There used to be points in my life where I would regret some things that I may do, but I've grown to realize that regretting them will not change anything, but accepting them as mistakes and moving forward will allow me to have peace within myself. Over this past school year and winding into my last year in college, I have learned to become comfortable with the skin that I am in. I admit that it was a long way coming but God has opened up my eyes to visualize what I have in front of me. If it had not been for him on my side, I do not know where I would be. I have forgiven myself for the harm I placed upon myself, and learned that the storm is only temporary and joy comes in the morning. I have also forgiven those who have placed harm upon me because without them I would not be able to stand as strong in my faith as I am now. I know God will make a way out of no way, and he will continue to bless whether I am in need or not. I now know who Tiffany is, and I am ready to conquer the world, one blessing at a time. I am happy and at peace, and God is the source of my needs. He is my provider, my strength, my guidance, my light, God is my everything. Be Blessed!

Finding Me

Okay, time to let it all go. I finally realized that over the past year I have spent my time trying to maintain some type of good "relationship" with 4 different guys. I just now came to the realization that none of them were worth my time. I must admit one stood out among the rest, but even he wasn't worth my time. I'm not about to fall under the cliche that it's a new year so that means a new me...NO I won't do it because I am still going to be the same me just with some modifications. This past year has been an epic disaster, but at the same time it has been the most helpful because I learned a lot of lessons. The drama stops now, the tears stop now, the mind boggling stops now, the questioning of what is real or fake STOPS NOW! I admit that I am flawed, but this is America, who isn't. I ask for forgiveness from those who I may have hurt in any way, and I forgive those who may have unintentionally hurt me. I can't help others until I've learned to help myself first. I will no longer apologize for being me. Today is a new day, and tomorrow isn't promised. This year is about me...I'm about to start pouring out the "Unveiling Mysteries of TLC." I am no longer hiding or afraid to be me. It may have took me 20 years to realize it, but I finally found Tiffany!!!

Letter to My Doctor

Dear Doc,
Cure me from this heartbreak
That you unwillingly created
Prove to me that my tears and feelings
Are somehow related

Dear Doc,
I promise to give you the key
If it's kept safe inside
I finally figured out
Your heart is where I reside

Dear Doc,
Open up your heart
And stop shutting me out
I'll cherish you with all I've got
And with me you'll never have doubts

Dear Doc,
I am smiling within my soul
Because you came to me
And showed me happiness
So with you I know I'm made whole

Dear Doc,
I've invested so much time
I don't want to see it go to waste
There is only so much room in my heart
And your name already has a space

Dear Doc,
Don't take me for granted
Because I'm trusting you with my heart
I'm giving you a chance to indulge
In a love so pure and enchanted

Sincerely,
Your Patient

.::.Countdown to One Moment.::.

Twenty years of excellence
Nineteen years of smiling
Eighteen years of happiness
Seventeen years of gratitude
Sixteen years of confidence
Fifteen years of forgiveness
Fourteen years of giving
Thirteen years of curiosity
Twelve years of honesty
Eleven years of growing
Ten years of courage
Nine years of friendship
Eight years of understanding
Seven years of loyalty
Six years of conversation
Five years of wondering
Four years of strength
Three years of humbleness
Two years of laughter
One year of loving
One month of wishing
One week of caring
One day of seeking
One hour of hoping
One minute of praying
One second of seeing
One moment still waiting to be fulfilled.

***TIRED***

I'm tired of letting in men who don't know how to pull out,
I'm not talking about sex,
I'm talking about the low-down dirty bastards who don't know how to leave when they know they've broken your heart.
I'm tired of catching the same disease from men,
I'm not talking about sex,
I'm talking about the disease of love that's so contagious when you fall for the wrong guy.
I'm tired of playing the "69" game,
I'm not talking about sex,
I'm talking about the 6 times you take his sorry ass back for the 9 girls he cheated on you with.
I'm tired of being on the bottom,
I'm not talking about sex,
I'm talking about being rock bottom because his dumb ass is too weak to help you up.
I'm tired of not being able to pick the position,
I'm not talking about sex,
I'm talking about the position that breaks his ego, but your too scared to take it because your stupidly in love.
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired,
Enough is enough,
So baby boy...you gotta pack up and head for the door. Don't look back cause this sista can't take it anymore.

(: Still Smiling :)

Through it all I'm still smiling:
Countless heartbreaks,
Numerous tears,
Long, sleepless nights,
Never-ending arguments,
Heartfelt prayers,
Unforgiving moments,
Fear after every nightmare,
Losing and gaining weight,
Loss of too many strands of hair,
A handful of chest pains,
Body aches out of this world,
So many "I love you's"
Too many "I don't care's "
A whole lot of trust,
But you know what,
Through it all I'm still smiling.
You may have hurt me
You may have left me
You may have made me cry
You may have wanted me to die
You may have lied
You may have cheated
You may have thought you won
But I'm still standing,
I'm still living,
And most of all...
Through it all I'm still smiling!

~ So Close To Missing Out ~

Your like a gust of wind in a quiet storm, you simply take my breath away. You are something special, but you constantly fail to realize it. You have a good heart, but your too afraid to put it to good use. I don't know how to hurt you, I only know how to care about you, and potentially fall in love with you. You are amazing in all that you do, but you continue to put up a wall so that people can't see your true beauty. You have feelings and emotions, but like all of those who have been hurt in the past, you hide it with your beautiful smile. Your tears are angelic, I can only wish to see them. You try to fool me with your grace and humor, but I've been where you are so I can't be fooled. I'm not a heartbreaker, I've just been heartbroken. I'm willing to push it all aside, but why aren't you. You are fragile and I see it, but you show others that you are hard as stone. Your beauty is everlasting, but it only takes you a minute to try to destroy it. You speak as if you don't hurt, you smile as if you don't feel, you run as if you can't walk, and you hide as if you can't be seen. Stop trying to be perfect, strop trying to keep it all in. I'm willing to stand beside you, if your willing to let me in. I can only give so much until I have nothing left to give. I'm standing here waiting, but your steady procrastinating. I'm a good woman, and your a good man. your going to miss out on a good thing, if your never choose to let me in.